Today I left my position at Covenant College as an admissions representative. I think I need to say in some public record, since many questions will be asked as to why I left, that Covenant College is completely free of any fault in this regard. I made some foolish decisions recently and as a consequence it was decided that the best course of action would be withdrawal from my position. I really am in complete agreement with this decision and am 100% on board with it emotionally, mentally, the whole nine yards. I dont want to go into it much further. I would just ask two things of those who know me. 1) Dont assume in any way that I have been wronged or mistreated by Covenant College. 2) Please give me as much benefit of the doubt as possible and dont assume the worst about what my actions indeed were.
Its funny how the situation that happened this week could have had an entirely different result if any number of small factors had occurred differently. It reminds me of the movie "Babel" which I saw recently. In "Babel" you watch a situation escalate into the worst possible scenario, and you keep saying to yourself "If just this had happened" or "If just that had happened" or "If only that person could have understood that other person just a little bit better" then everything would have worked out much better. But I have to remind myself that even though this situation could have turned out a lot differently if I had just made a few simple choices differently, this situation did happen the way that God intended. Each factor fell into place the way it did for a reason, each step was taken with a purpose. That is hard to believe sometimes. I am so tempted to believe its all just chaos, and that the situation just took the worst possible turn by mere chance. If only I had refrained from saying that one thing when I said it, or doing that one thing when I did it, it would have turned out so much differently. And it would have. This really could have been avoided very, very easily. It kills to know how easily it could have been avoided. But then thats where my faith in the providence of God needs to be tested and strengthened...knowing that even though things could have worked out differently, they didnt, and for a reason.
Well I am already starting to see what some of those reasons are and I am excited about what God is going to do in the process. Will definitely keep you posted.
Posted by todd at February 12, 2007 12:30 PM