I was pretty harsh on life in my last blog post. Sure things can be bad sometimes, but I think I was putting things in the worse possible light in order to overcompensate for my frustration. Church, family, community: yeah, these things can be frustrating but there is a lot of good there too. I was pretty convicted by Phillipians 4:4-7 yesterday:
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
I realize that where I have been dropping the ball first and foremost is in the area of proactively rejoicing and praying about my anxieties. I let the church down, my family down, and my friends down more than they could ever let me down when I refuse to pray for them and when I refuse to rejoice for them. And you know, I really do have great reasons to rejoice in all three of these areas. I wouldnt want to suggest otherwise. But I do get overwhelmed sometimes by the the things that dont work, so much so that I forget about the things that do work. I guess the holidays just intensify this problem. But yeah, feeling better and feeling thankful.