This week has been a week of "lasts." Half the time I dont notice them, but they are happening all around me. Last class. Last staff meeting. Last prayer meeting. Last instance of a Wednesday afternoon routine. Possibly the last meaningful conversation I will ever have with that person. Last chance to do that right. Last time to deal with doing it wrong. Last pasta meal. Last time cleaning my apartment. Last four mile run. Last awkward moment of that variety. Last trip to the Cedar Rapids Public Library. Last time wasting time in that way. Last bit of grading to do. Last load of laundry. Last scoop of coffee. Last feelings: a mix of regret and thankfulness, confusion and clarity.
In terms of moving on and looking ahead, I have two major goals that are at the top of my list (at least this morning):
1) Work on my eye contact with people in conversations
2) Be a good listener
3) Stop all forms of narcissistic complaining